Bryce is full on smiles these days. I don't feel like we are getting lucky if we catch a smile, we know how to make him smile and I love it. He also gets his tongue going like a little lizard.
He is getting pretty strong with his head. Being on his tummy doesn't make him mad anymore and he seems to enjoy it for short periods. He will lay on his back much longer. I usually set up his floor toy behind the couch while I make dinner and he entertains himself the whole time. I don't let him stay on his tummy while I cook though, I get too worried still. Once he is rolling over on his own, I think I'll feel more at ease.
Lilly is pretty funny with him being on the floor so much these days. She will bring all her toys and continuously drop them right by him. She doesn't like all the attention he gets but she also wants him to play with her. She'll figure it out eventually. I'm sure one day she'll miss it when he didn't bother her. She is going to start hiding from him soon :)
This is a picture of the face I stare at lots when I am rocking him to sleep. He just stares at me until he can't hold open his eyes any longer. I think it is such a sweet little face.
On another note, I've started back to work. It is hard to leave him every morning. I cry but I have managed not to cry at work. I think it is partly because I have split my lunch break to be able to pump every day to continue breastfeeding. I think this keeps my emotions in check at work to my surprise. I feel like I am still able to provide for him even while I am away and it makes me feel really good. It also gives me time to check in on him and think about him, work aside. I do think breastfeeding is the hardest thing I have ever done. It is a monsterous commitment but I know it is worth it and I have kept at it but look forward to the end. It is much easier than it was the first several weeks. The hardest part about going back to work is the guilt I feel for only seeing bryce a few hours a day and on weekends. I know lots of mamas out there do it, I try and remind myself of that.